been an adequate person, in terms of behavioral actions
In relation to my parents, have I been much of a good son
Or have I really taken them for granted all this while
and as my conscience pricks me I turn to speed thrash music
which probably makes me even more on a live wire angst
And then again I keep asking myself if I have had
been a good friend, a good enough boyfriend, and all those
There's this unnerving feeling that somethings going to end
for example the world, a life, etc, and that makes me feel
compelled to start to really help others around me more
even to my mom and the people around me
I don't know, but I feel the sudden need to accomplish
not something but many things I know and I once was
very capable of. I think I'm doubting myself as a person
and the things that I do...perhaps weren't as good as
compared to what I would've done before
fuck future
fuck past
I think everything takes it toll at a certain point of time
an accumulated toll, collected together into a moment